May 28 2026

I know nobody will read this, but I wanted to write it anyway. It's been nearly a year since I put out SYK, which is the debut someoneyouknew project/EP. I wouldn't call it an album because I think albums should be huge moments, and for me, this project wasn't exactly that. This project was a test to see if I could really put together a project for someoneyouknew.

I've done many different projects under b3aver, but someoneyouknew is a lot harder. It takes more time to put those songs together—the writing, producing, mixing, arranging, artwork, vocals, etc. It’s not as easy as what I used to do with b3aver. This project, for once, gave me the "what now" feeling I’ve been wanting for so long. It gave me a purpose or an excuse to slow down, even though I knew it would be a "bad idea," especially at this time since you have to constantly push out new content to be successful.

I hate that. I really aspire to be like artists who take their time to put out new music; not rushing into trends, but trusting themselves to put stuff out at the right time. My art means a lot to me—every song I make and put out is very intentional. If nobody hears my work, I’ll still be glad I’ve been able to make something that I would actually listen to. I’m very picky when listening to music, so making music that I like myself is important.

SYK was the project I’ve always dreamed of making, and it’s been kind of hard to wrap my head around the fact that I really made those songs. I started the idea around September 2024 and began picking out older songs to use as placeholders while I was coming up with concepts. In March 2025, I started to really focus. I wrote and produced "CONFIDENCE" and "GRAVESTONE," then started reworking older tracks like "AFTERLIFE" and "FALLING APART," as well as reworking an instrumental that would later become my favorite song, "RUNAWAY."

By the time April approached its end, I had made "LIGHT OUT," "LIFE OF SIN," and "RUNAWAY." Those last three songs built the narrative I was missing in the first editions of the tracklist. I had so many songs made or up for consideration, but no narrative was clear until those songs arrived. Tracks like "GO AWAY" and "GIVE IT UP" were removed to make room for them and to keep the story clear. I was mixing, sequencing, editing, and designing constantly, making sure every single thing was perfect and the vibe was clear.

The black and white imagery was a choice I made to keep the character mysterious—in a way that wasn't edgy, but purposeful—to better enhance the storytelling of a cold, numb place. The title was also intentional; it keeps that mysterious vibe, acting as an introduction to the story rather than just telling it to you.

It's been a while now, and I'm still surprised by the commitment I made to creating that project. As of now, I've moved to a new city living with roommates in a super tight room with thin walls. I’m not able to really create like I was used to, which honestly has been giving me little episodes of depression as my artistry has been limited. I’m still producing and even writing songs on some quiet nights, but I miss laying down melodies and just blasting those speakers with the bass all the way up, trying to imagine myself performing in front of tens of thousands of people.

That’s why I’m trying to create a b3aver project right now. I used to make most of my older b3aver music while slacking off in class. It was a way for me to feel free, and I’m being brought back to that feeling. I’m trying to take this time to see what the future of someoneyouknew and b3aver will be, and see how far I can take SYK MUSIC as a business.

Though I see my life at a creative low since I put out SYK, I never stopped seeing my potential as an artist. I know what I’m capable of, and I can’t wait for the world to see it again. Thank you to anyone who read this or listened to my music. I love you, and your support—whether silent or loud—means everything to me. I can’t wait for the future.

— Owen

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]

I don't know whats real anymore

To where do I belong forevermore

You made me fall from my light (fallin' from my light)

I wish I saw through this fight (all through this fight)

I lost who I am (I lost who I am)

Will I find me before I turn to sand

[Refrain]

I think I found love

So what do I have not myself

Am I selfish for bringing you in

To my life of sin

Oh to my life of sin

[Verse 2]

I don't wanna fade away

Today is just not my day

I know I'm lost but I want to stay

Peace will not follow I'm bout to pay

For all the things I've done 

And all the things i've ever wanted

Are too far for me to reach

Cause time will no longer wait for me

[Refrain]

I think I found love

So what do I have not myself

Am I selfish for bringing you in

To my life of sin

Credits:

Written by Owen Shaddick

Produced by someoneyouknew

Lyrics:

[Chorus]

You living that party life 

And I'm waiting for the afterlife

[Verse 1]

I swear she's wasted just trynna fit in

1 am not feeling shit

She's feeling alone

Hitting up my phone all night

She's trynna feel right

Til the sun comes up

[Chorus]

You living that party life 

And I'm waiting for the afterlife

[Verse 2]

I think she wanna play all night

I'm not trynna fuck tonight

I want her but not tonight

She's trynna fall iin love but it doesn't feel right

[Chorus]

You living that party life 

And I'm waiting for the afterlife

You living that party life 

And I'm waiting for the afterlife

And I'm waiting for the afterlife

Credits:

Written by Owen Shaddick

Produced by someoneyouknew

Recorded by Eden Ward

Lyrics:

[Chorus]

Looks like I gave you the wrong confidence

Now I know she gon' leave me alone

Fighting for my own

[Verse 1]

Oh I know this girl's getting way too confident (oh she gettin' too confident}

My hearts getting way too tolerant (oh my hearts so tolerant)

I know she want my heart but fuck my mind's on alert (my mind's on alert)

I already fell so I know my heart's gon' hurt (my heart gon' hurt)

[Chorus]

Looks like I gave you the wrong confidence

Now I know she gon' leave me alone

Fighting for my own

{Verse 2]

Oh I'm into deep can you put my mind asleep (can you put my mind to sleep)

I can't get no rest when all I do is think of you (all I do)

I'm trynna fall out of love but I gave my whole life to you (I gave my whole life)

Oh I can't believe how long I tried with you (why did I try with you)

[Chorus]

Looks like I gave you the wrong confidence

Now I know she gon' leave me alone

Fighting for my own

Looks like I gave you the wrong confidence

Now I know she gon' leave me alone

Fighting for my own

Credits:

Written by Owen Shaddick

Produced by someoneyouknew

Lyrics:

[Intro]

I think she finally seen who I am

I'm not proud of what I've become

[Chorus]

Who am I when the light out

Will you hold me down when I got no more fight left

[Verse 1]

I put this shit on my life now

I fucked with the wrong ones I'm outside now

I lay my priorities on the wrong side

I know who you are and the parts that you hide

[Chorus]

Who am I when the light out

Will you hold me down when I got no more fight left

Who am I when the light out

Will you hold me down when I got no more fight left

[Verse 2] 

All the secrets that I've kept

If they ever saw the light

You'll finally see how I felt

These scars won't heal my skin lost it's fight

[Chorus]

Who am I when the light out

Will you hold me down when I got no more fight left

Who am I when the light out

Will you hold me down when I got no more fight left

Credits:

Written by Owen Shaddick

Produced by someoneyouknew

Lyrics:

[Chorus]

I'm falling apart I'm falling apart 

I don't know where to go

I'm falling apart I'm falling apart 

I don't know where to go

[Verse]

I feel like I'm running out of time

To see what it looks like to live fine

When my life is gone would you care then

Would you care then

[Chorus]

I'm falling apart I'm falling apart 

I don't know where to go

I'm falling apart I'm falling apart 

I don't know where to go

I'm falling apart I'm falling apart 

I don't know where to go

I'm falling apart I'm falling apart 

I don't know where to go

I'm falling apart I'm falling apart 

I don't know where to go

I'm falling apart I'm falling apart 

I don't know where to go

Credits:

Written by Owen Shaddick

Produced by someoneyouknew

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]

There's nothing that you can say

That will change me from my forever ways

But I'm begging you to stay

To help me beyond my ways

[Chorus]

For those who said I was lost

Don't know how much this time cost

I thought I'd be alone

All the way to my gravestone

[Verse 2]

There's something that I should say

So I could make you stay

But I'm letting go of you

I'm falling out of love with you

Oh girl I'm sorry I tried to break slowly

But nothing could change

Oh we are on a different stage

[Chorus]

For those who said I was lost

Don't know how much this time cost

I thought I'd be alone

All the way to my gravestone

For those who said I was lost

Don't know how much this time cost

I thought I'd be alone

All the way to my gravestone

[Verse 3]

Why did we let go

Oh why did we let go

Oh we left so cold

Oh we left so cold

I just wanna wake up

I just wanna wake up

Get me out of this dream

I need out of this dream

[Chorus]

For those who said I was lost

Don't know how much this time cost

I thought I'd be alone

All the way to my gravestone

For those who said I was lost

Don't know how much this time cost

I thought I'd be alone

All the way to my gravestone

Credits:

Written by Owen Shaddick

Produced by someoneyouknew

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]

I know there's something wrong with me

You give me all I want but I can't see your trust 

How could I be this patient

I don't understand your decisions

Before you I couldn't sleep at night

I was left all alone trynna find myself all night

Falling to my vices

Listening to the wrong voices

[Chorus]

Now I'm telling myself I need to runaway

I don't wanna runaway

I can't runaway

But I keep trynna runaway

Now I'm telling myself I need to runaway

I don't wanna runaway

I can't runaway

But I keep trynna runaway

[Verse 2]

Why would you want to stay

I don't even know myself 

Why would you do this to yourself

I'm trynna hide all the wrong things about me

But you keep saying you give a fuck about me

How am I supposed to believe you

Can you please give me a reason to

[Chorus]

Now I'm telling myself I need to runaway

I don't wanna runaway

I can't runaway

But I keep trynna runaway

Now I'm telling myself I need to runaway

I don't wanna runaway

I can't runaway

But I keep trynna runaway

Now I'm telling myself I need to runaway

I don't wanna runaway

I can't runaway

But I keep trynna runaway

Now I'm telling myself I need to runaway

I don't wanna runaway

I can't runaway

But I keep trynna runaway

Credits:

Written by Owen Shaddick

Produced by someoneyouknew